Oh monkey I've delayed writing this entry for so long because I had so much to say and now, I'm not sure where to start.
Baby I cried so much the night you were born. I couldn't believe I had a son. I was desperate to give birth because I was so uncomfortable and in the August heat I just wanted to melt.
I remember buying your first blanket, the Elmo and Cookie Monster one. I took you home in that blanket.
Fun fact: I walked out of the hospital with you in my arms wrapped in that blanket. I remember I couldn't afford a car seat so I kind of stole you, but you're mine anyway so fuck them.
Your pregnancy was tough, your delivery was torture, your first month of life I cried as much as you did. I had zero sleep between jas and nursing you and taking care of you guys.
As a toddler you were so cute and funny and unapologetic. I loved that about you.
I still do.
I love that you are who you are no matter what. I hope you continue to lean into that side of you and life doesn't change you.
I love how smart and caring you are, even when you're mad at me or your siblings. It used to melt my heart when you were younger and you'd say you'd always take care of me. That you'd change my diapers when it was time.
Baby, I want you to know that you will always be my monkey. No matter how old you are, no matter if you're married, you are MY monkey!! I've always believed that you're destined for greatness. I look forward to the day that we can both sit on a porch (in rocking chairs) and laugh about all these silly little things from when you were a kid. I know you guys get embarrassed about everything but I couldn't be prouder to be your mom. All of you.
You're my little genius, my IT guy, the sweetest little guy, your heart is so big and pure and I don't think you've realized it yet. I hope your life is always full of people who genuinely love you. I hope you overcome every obstacle you face. I hope you continue to be my little monkey even when I'm old and forgetful and annoying. Because monkey I will always be your crazy mama, I will always love you more than anything and I will forever be in your corner.
I love you kid 💕
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