yesterday was your birthday, you would have been turning 47. we celebrated you the way we always do. we went to outback, we sang to you, we had cake and soda. totally unhealthy by the way. but it was your day and we always do the things you enjoyed in life. i have to admit that sometimes it's really tough trying to keep your memory alive. it's getting harder as they get older.
yesterday for example, i just felt exhausted. i didn't have enough energy to fake the joy of celebrating you. even now as i write about it, it just makes me sad and cynical. almost like, what's the point? but i do know the point. the point is to keep you here with us on special occasions. the point is for the kids to remember those little things that always mattered most. the point is for them to not feel like they're missing out because they have a great dad, even if you're not physically here. i want them to remember it wasn't always like this and that happy and beautiful moments did happen. that's what i want them to keep remembering. that is the point.
happy birthday hunny bee 🐝
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